Something else that I deeply fear is self-doubt. I fear it because it has taken over and has influenced my decisions. Self-doubt, for me, comes most when I’m trying to get myself to sleep. I tend to reflect on my day, the ideas I contributed, and the work I completed, but then it turns into uncertainty about how good everything I’ve done is. The truth is, nothing I do seems good enough for me after I finish and compare it to others. It’s exhausting and consuming. I wanted to reflect on how I don’t want to think these things and would like to hide from them if I had the chance. Self-doubt is a monster. A monster under my bed and creeps out when I’m trying to sleep, sometimes come in my dreams and makes sure it is being remembered and feared.