I did a lot of drawings, if you look through the whole collection, which we have wonderfully got digitised now, and I've got a lot of drawings, particularly at that stage of my life, of either my head full of all these thoughts and anguish, in various compartments, or absolutely surrounded by burdens and bundles, dragging them all. And this one, I think we chose it because it fills the whole page, it sort of sums it up, but it's very painterly. I think I love the use of colour, and the strange bits of faces appearing, it's sort of both, it's got a tiny bit of imagery, but it's mostly very sort of full of expression. There's me, tiny person, and you know, with these...in my life at the time, I mean, you look back people were trying to sort out why you've cracked up and nobody, because I'm a woman really noticed the fact that I had children. I had supported my husband and I had a mother who was cracking up. I was a very successful artist in most people's terms by then, but very precarious financially. Both Andrew my photographer ex-husband and I struggling to survive and dashing around trying to do everything I could to get money in with absolutely no security. I look back and I think this is ridiculous, that nobody noticed what happened and all these very, very difficult things that have happened in my early life, which was sort of bubbling up and actually if I look back on it now, with the campaign about Perimenopause, you know, I was well, probably like 48. I was exhausted so much of the time, and I kept working all the way through, I cracked up and nobody noticed. I think the mental health profession saw me as sort of exotic, unusual, interesting woman, and nobody took seriously the fact about money and earning. And I'm going to put this in. I remember my obsession was that worry about money in those first three or four years and no single mental health professional took that seriously. And when I said in a meeting with them all, well I've decided I could be a long-distance lorry driver. They all laughed. I mean, I don't know what they thought I was doing to get these bits of money coming in and fighting with funding bodies to get more security…anyway. I think my outrage at that is summed up in these bubbles in its quiet painterly explosion onto the page.